Month: May 2009

  • I noticed my title for Wednesday was "Shaky Thuday" and now realize it wasn't Thursday, nor did I even spell it correctly.  Welcome to the world where I now abide!!!

    I didn't get as much sleep as I would have liked last night, but almost 6 hours.  I'm feel okay today, it's usually Saturday through Tuesday when I feel the most weak.

    I know I had pictures loaded yesterday and added some more this morning.  But I'm not sure what's been shown - so forgive me for duplicates.  I say that a lot lately, "Forgive me if I've shared this already!"  "Forgive me if I've already told you about this."  (rolling eyes) 

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    We've had storms several nights and JoAnn was spooked enough with her bed under the window and "asked permission" to move the furniture around.  No problem on this end.  I laughed when I saw the double bed as far away from the window as she could get it and the twin bed moved slightly away, with the dresser and mirror blocking the possibility of flying window glass through the 2" wood blinds!

                                      

    Due to her allergies, she locks the cats out of her room with a ribbon wrapped around the double set of doors.  Ribbons hold the door securely shut, but they don't keep Chirper from trying to untie them!
             
    It is just too tempting (being a cat) to not mess with that dangling ribbon!!!

    By the way, Sushi is now trying to open the back door (to get out and in) with the door knob.  She knows we use that gold metal thing to make the door open and close, but she hasn't figured out exactly how we do it!  Pretty comical to watch her outside the glass door with her paws on the door knob, shaking it!

    The clouds were so interesting 2 nights ago.  From the south things were clear with a dark cloud line, but from the southwest there were clouds that look like black puffs of cotton.
                                                                                          
    Can you see the white cross in the middle of the picture?

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    Yesterday was a long, long visit at chemo therapy.  They were very busy and I was in no hurry.  They expressed their appreciation for my being so patient.  I told them I usually dedicated the whole day to chemo and and hour wouldn't make any real difference.  They weren't quite an hour past due - but very close!  It's very boring to sit there.  I read my Bible and bring Christian CD's and my boom box.  I had a snack of Triscuits, canned spreadable cheddar cheese, red grapes, cashew halves, and their complimentary ice water.  The grapes felt like they were stinging my tongue, and the cheese made me feel a little queasy; so I ate the bare minimum to keep up my blood sugar and longed to be home.

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    I don't think I every shared my Mother's Day cards.  I received store bought cards and one on Monday from my cousin Claire (THANKS, Claire!!!).

                                  


    The girls made me one at their therapy session.  Julie helped with the cover and then each child had a double page inside the card.

                  

    Rissy had the first set of pages.
                 

    Next was someone who remains unknown turn.  From the curly "a" - I'm guessing Annamarie!

    After the mystery person's greeting, it was Annamarie's chance (for sure!!!) at the pages!
              

    And Luci brought up the rear of the booklet with her greeting and party streamers she glued in the top & bottom!
                         
    Notice the glittery stickers and the red rhinestone under the "p's" in "Happy"?  Leave it to Luci to find the sparkle and glitz.  She's such a Diva at times!

    I thought it was so nice of our therapist to do this for them/me.  She's such a neat person!

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    This afternoon, I have to go back for my shot ("build 'em up white cells" shot).  Don the painter just called to see if he could to the touch up painting in our bedroom.  One side of a vent was missed and a small piece of the ceiling caved in when they blew the insulation into the attic.  About a 12 inch crack was seamed and prepared and had to dry before painting.  Hopefully that won't take long because JoAnn needs to get in the shower and wash her hair and then *I* have to take a bath.  I can't do that with Don in the bathroom painting.  (update: well never mind, he's here and neither one of us made it to the bathroom!!!)

    I have some questions about my surgery around September 1st.  I'm having nightmares, so I think it best for me to call my surgeon's nurse and have the facts.  Funny, cancer doesn't scare me, but surgery definitely does.  I'm frequently praying and battling with my mind and its imagination.  Facts surely will help me.  It always helps me to know the truth.

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    I was messing around with my camera the other day.  I know it's capable of much more than I use it for and so I played with sepia and black & white settings.  I like the black & white and think if the sepia was used in a more formal setting, I'd like the authentic antique look.       

                                

    I see pictures as stories, but my skill level is no where near what I'd like it to be.  Since my pictures are used to narrate my stories, I haven't really worried about their quality.  I don't feel like I have lots of time to read, read, read and take test pictures.  Now I have the time, but lack the concentration.  Oh well, such is life!

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    JoAnn is fixing spaghetti for dinner, which sounds really good.  Last night, Jesse made me two burgers - one with lettuce & tomato and the other with barbeque sauce & dill pickles.  It doesn't really matter what I eat - I can't taste the flavor.  I told the oncologist, yesterday, that I felt like I was eating styrofoam packing popcorn or slices of cardboard.  The difference between roast beef and a hamburger is the one is thin sliced cardboard and the other is a thick piece of cardboard!!!

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    I guess that's about all for today.  It's too hot to do the girls' laundry (or ANY laundry) after 12 noon.  Very, very muggy today with more storms moving in tonight through tomorrow. 

    Yay!  Yay! It's May!  It's May! 

    Thunderstorms and tornadoes abound.

    Oh, and by the way, I do know it's Friday.  Finally got my days straightened!

    AND, I've posted the new book I'm reading.  It's a bunch of short stories in one book.  I think it's geared toward teen readers.  Makes for a fast read.

    Be Blessed  ~

  • Chemo Today

    There's a song, from many eons ago (when I was VERY young!!!), called "Wipe Out" and that definitely describes how I feel today.

    I went for blood work, doctor visit, and chemo this morning.  This was a long chemo session because they added that "make your bone healthy" IV solution.

    I'll try to write tomorrow and narrate the pictures I added this morning.  I'm just too weak to write much today.

    Good news:  The tumor has shrunk even more in my breast and she said she can't feel the lymph node tumor at all.  The doc also told me the new drug they start for round 5 - 8 won't be so hard on me - energy-wise; nor with side effects like I am experiencing.  She reiterated that they are giving me the strongest and worst possible stuff they can give to aggressively kill the cancer cells and she thinks I'm doing great - even hugged me when she left the room!

    I'm crawling back to bed now. 

    Be Blessed  ~

    P.S.  I finished my book, but can't remember what I'm reading, now.  Something by Beverly Lewis, I think!

  • Shaky Thusday

    This has been a weird morning.  Several things I've attempted to do have left me feeling shaky and .  . . well . . . just plain weird.  I don't know how else to describe it.  Many things make me break out in a sweat - even if they are things that aren't particularly exhausting.  It may all be related to my blood pressure (low).  The black out feeling I get, each time I sit up or stand too fast, can, possibly, be attributed to lower blood pressure.

    (don't know why my pictures came out so dark today)

                                           

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    I accomplished several things this morning: 

    1)  I put up (and organized) canned foods on one of the garage pantry shelving units (we have four).  Simple stuff.  Fruit with fruits, black eyed peas with black eyed peas, taco shells with taco shells, etc.  I came in feeling pooped after 5 - 10 minutes of moving things around.  Yesterday, I reorganized the inside pantry shelves.  We have a ton of macaroni and cheese boxes (different kinds) and I couldn't get to anything else because of the abundant amount of mac & cheese products.  So, I reorganized 3 baskets of mac and cheese and didn't feel dizzy.  BUT, I *was* standing the whole time and not bending over (when problems always occur).

    2)  After that, I entered Jesse's new business checks he's collected.  I'm in the process of setting up our books (the paper and pen OLD FASHIONED way!!!) and I am amazed at how horrible my handwriting looks.  My hands feel shaky (even though they are NOT visibly shaking) and it really was hard for me to enter (and/or set up a new page for) the customer's checks.  Another thing that made me break out in a sweat - *thinking hard* . . .  LOL!!!!  I'm tellin' ya' . . . that *thinkin' business* will do it every time!!!! LOL

    3)  Next, I got under the desk to see if my computer's speakers were disconnected, because they no longer work.  It's entirely possible Sushi chewed through a cord, and that's what I was looking for.  Bad choice - bending over and crouched under a desk . . . not good at all.  Bending over is guaranteed to make me dizzy each and every time.  I got up really slowly . . . sat on the floor, then sat in my chair, then stood up.  It didn't help the dizziness.  Still, I continue to do the things I *know* will make me dizzy.  (Stupid or stubborn . . . not sure which!)

    4)  The last thing I did didn't require me bending over.  I wrapped the top of Rissy's new black-out curtains over the rods that hold the lace panels.  I don't have another curtain rod yet, and she HAD TO HAVE the neighbor's motion sensitive  "search light" blocked from shining in her window at night.  I grabbed the step stool from her closet, stood up to wrap the curtains over the existing rods and then went to my bed to lie down and cool off. 

    "Whew-ee!"  That's all I have to say!!!

    Everything I do makes me dizzy and/or hot.  That's why I continue to do "stuff" anyway - it doesn't make any difference how minor or simple - it all makes me break out in sweat, as if I had just climbed a staircase several times!

    The doctor and her nurse both said I should do what I can and rest when I need to.

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    Jesse is trying to get out there, today, and mow fast and furious!  We are supposed to have rain (t-storms) moving in again tonight though tomorrow.  It stormed after midnight last night.  I missed the whole thing.  Must have been out like a light!!!  JoAnn said it kept her awake, again.  The beds are under the windows, in the guest room, and she was sure the glass would break on her head from the winds and beating rain!!!  I don't even know if we got hail.  I slept through the entire night of lightning, thunder, and wind that pelted the house with rain.

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    JoAnn took the girls to the eye doctor this morning.  It's time for their yearly check up.  We've been wondering about Annamarie's eye sight AND her glasses are falling apart (the lens on one side keeps popping out).  After their eye doctor appointment, JoAnn plans to take them to the park before it becomes really hot (near 90°) and the humidity rises any higher.  It's pretty heavy out there right now.  The garage was muggy feeling when I was stacking cans, and that might have been part of the reason I felt dizzy afterward.

    I'll have to wait until they all come home to take my bath.  I'm taking no chances driving anywhere or bathing without an adult in the house.  I could probably drive, if there was an emergency, but don't feel alert enough to get behind the wheel without a VERY good reason.

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    Rissy didn't get all of her leg braces.  She only got the pink ones to use on both legs at night.  She is being so good about the whole thing.  Not complaining or saying she didn't want to wear them or they were uncomfortable  . . .   We have to order the shoes first and then they will put the single daytime orthotic in it, before they can give us the orthotic.  An insurance rule . . . You have to have the shoe AND orthotic or they won't release the orthotic (rolling my eyes).  That makes shopping for cheaper shoes impossible because you don't have the orthotic to put in a shoe!  She chose a white shoe (insurance purchases one pair) and we will have to come up with a backyard play shoe.  They also told Jesse and JoAnn that she should wear the night time orthotics if she is lying down watching a movie, etc.

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    JoAnn just called and said Luci needs glasses, too.  Annamarie's one eye HAS gotten worse, as I suspected.  She puts her nose to a book (almost touching the page) to read stuff.  I wasn't sure if she wasn't recognizing the words and thought if she got closer she could read/focus/think better; OR, if her glasses weren't doing the job.  Apparently they weren't.  Luci needs glasses for reading or close up work and Rissy's eyes improved but she still needs reading glasses.  They said they should have non-glare and scratch resistant glasses, but insurance won't pay for it.  They told JoAnn that type of lens treatment is $50 per child!!!!!  $150 with not much of an income (REALLY rolling my eyes) until the rains stop. 

    (update)  While writing this, I did some investigating and found that insurance WILL pay for a non-scratch lens IF the prescription is written and "coded" correctly.  I was going to take the RX's to EyeMart because they said our insurance would cover the glasses.  Now the eye exam doctor (the original doctor this morning) is considering doing what it takes to get us to buy the 3 pair of glasses from him at no cost to us.  WHY DO PEOPLE MAKE THINGS SO COMPLICATED???!!!!

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    We're still eating the Mother's Day meat that Jesse cooked.  I made a pork roast meal last night and there was enough leftover from *that* for another meal.  I'm thinking those two things of leftovers should be saved for AFTER my chemo visit tomorrow.  We could eat those leftovers for the next few days.  Since I feel I'm able to cook a meal, maybe I should.  That would make things easier for JoAnn.  I usually cook the second week after chemo and she cooks the first week after chemo.  It works out that we each have a break for a few days. 

    She has less of a break than me because she does all the laundry, housekeeping, feeds the pets, teaches the girls, etc.  I'm not doing any of that.  If I attempt to clean something, a responsible adult usually stops me!  I swept up the litter mess around Chirper's litter box this morning (with a regular broom) and asked Luci to finish picking the litter up with a dustpan and brush. 

    I'm not supposed to be around litter boxes or the bird's cage.  I have only handled Tango once - she needed her head feathers scratched.  She had what looks like little plastic ends (like a shoe lace) on all of her top knot feathers.  She let me do it without complaining, so I'm sure she felt better after I picked off that crud and fluffed her feathers.  I washed my hands really well when I was done.

                                             

    Nothing on a "To Do List" today, as I have already done what I needed to do! 

    I need to put away the new homeschool books and wait for the eye doctor's office to call me back.  Other than putting the books on a cupboard shelf in the guest room (which is "low"), nothing should make me dizzy!!!!

    I should finish the last 2 or 3 chapters in my book.  I'm sure anyone who looks to see what I am currently reading wishes I'd move on to something else!!!!! LOL

    Be Blessed  ~

  • Feeling Lazy

    I'm sorry I haven't been on here since last Friday.  I've been feeling kinda lazy, and I haven't felt like there was much to share.  I don't know if it is related to my health or just the "lazies" that everyone experiences from time to time!

    I've felt more or less like this . . .
                                   

    Or, maybe, even this . . .
                        

    or maybe it's been a little of both!!!


    And the reason might be because the weather has looked like this . . .
          
    for the past 2 weeks.  (See the bird in the picture on the left???  I NEVER capture birds in flight.  This was a fluke!)

    We've had some fun (the family and pets and I) and I've felt a little bit more tired than I did after the last treatment.
         
    That is Chirper trying to get into JoAnn's room.  She ties the doors closed with a hair ribbon to keep the cats out!

                                 
    This really should have been a picture of Annamarie.  She lost a tooth yesterday afternoon.  We didn't even know she had a loose tooth.  She is the one who nurses a loose tooth along for weeks.  We were watching "Jeopardy!" in the den and she went to the restroom.  She came back moments later with a tooth in her hand.  I'll try to take a picture of her to put up another day.

    My mother in law came over Saturday night and spent the night.  On Sunday, Mother's Day, I cut her hair for her.  She usually goes to a barber (and, "a barber" I'm not) but, I tried to give her what she wanted and she said she was happy with her shorter hair.
                                 

    Speaking of Mother's Day, Jesse bought some lovely flowers for me.  All pastels in peach, pink, and cream with some pretty greenery.  I'm rejoicing in the fact I have been indulged with "live cut flowers" ever since I was diagnosed with cancer.  When I worked at my "BIJ" (big impressive job), I bought fresh flowers for my house all the time.  Funny, I wasn't around much to enjoy them, like I am now, and (maybe) that could be why I'm enjoying them so much more.

      

                                 
                                 These are my 3 "Where's My Pet?" (Where's Waldo?) pictures for the day! 
                                                      Can anyone see furry friends in 2 of them????
                                              Hint:  You can imagine who had their nose in the flowers!

    JoAnn took the girls to buy me Mother's Day gifts when they went grocery shopping last week.  I normally don't get "gifts" but, rather, cards for Mother's Day.  I did get a pretty card that the girls made while at Luci & Annamarie's therapy session last Friday.  Their therapist, Julie, helped them.  She is awesome - and so sweet.  Anyway, they each got me something useful.  Two house coats (I use them as nightgowns, too) and one long sleeve shirt.

      

                                                                

    Rissy took pictures of JoAnn taking pictures!!!
      

    JoAnn was given a gift certificate from our family and their Mom was given two new pair of shoes (the kind she can easily slip on).

                                 
                   The bottom of this polka dotted house coat has butterflies and sun flowers.  VERY cheery.

    Jesse made us all a HUGE breakfast of bacon, turkey links, turkey patty sausage, scrambled eggs, coffee and orange juice, and two pans of sweet rolls.  You know the ones that come out of a biscuit can???  Orange flavored and cinnamon flavored rolls.  Yum! 

    Then he began the grill outside and started pork ribs, chicken legs, fajita meat (beef AND chicken), beef AND turkey burgers, turkey hotdogs, and turkey smoked sausage.  I made a potato salad and JoAnn made some baked beans.  We're still eating from that platter of meat!  In fact, for lunch today I made flour tortilla roll ups with thin sliced chicken fajita meat, lettuce, tomato, green onion, shredded cheddar cheese, and ranch salad dressing. 

    Rissy went to pick up her leg braces today.  She was a little reluctant about the braces this week; but, last night, she decided to have a good attitude and make the best of them.  She will only wear one during the day and will wear a different pair on both legs when she sleeps at night.  I prepared her, the best I could, for the fact she might feel unsteady at first.  She said she was okay with that and I told her this was the beginning of what they would do for her to alleviate her horrible back pain.  She's so young to have daily backaches.  I DO hope they help.

        

    Jesse just called.  He and JoAnn took Rissy out to lunch and will be calling back soon for the grocery list items.  I need a few things (like grapes) to take with me on Thursday to Round 3 of my chemo therapy.   They will give me that monthly "bone stuff" and it will take an extra 20 - 30 minutes this week.  I'm doing okay.  Like I said, I feel lazy and I've had a few "problems" or "irritations" crop up this time that aren't big, in and of themselves.  But, when you combine a few irritations all together . . . it makes for frustration and all that fine stuff.

    It looks like we have found someone else to help when JoAnn has to leave.  She is someone who used to live here and has moved back (temporarily) to help her father with HIS chemo.  There has been a delay in getting him started, so she said she'd be happy to help our family.  Jesse and JoAnn have known her for a long time, and I met her about 11 or 12 years ago.  Nice lady and familiar with home health care.  And REALLY patient with my girls and their individual special needs and behavior.  She came to visit yesterday and appears to have a good knowledge of what the girls are going through emotionally. 

                                                                                                                                                    

    Luci saw me without a cap on my head and gasped.  I'm not bald, but definitely look like the top of a man's head where a "comb over" was attempted!  In other words, the typical thin, thin, thin chemo hair look.  Can you believe I'm now praying it all COMPLETELY falls out???!!!!  It would be easier to care for my head with no hair. 

    Poor God, He gave me what I wanted (slow hair loss) and now I'm asking for something else!!!  How "carnal and flesh" of me!

                              

    Nothing on my "To Do List" today.  I'm going to put a pork roast in the oven soon for tonight's dinner.  And, "American Idol" is on tonight.  They are down to the last 3 contestants.  I haven't followed the show like I have done in the past - too many other things going on this year - but, I will do my best to watch the last few shows.  Other than taking a bath (which I already did), those were the big items to do today!!!

    Be Blessed ~

  • Things are Starting to Work

    Slowly, but surely, things are coming together around here.  This is the beginning of my "good" week!!! 

    I noticed a comment about my camera's reader/writer and how the commenter's dock will sometimes works and sometimes doesn't.  I tried it again today and it worked, uploading pictures, perfectly . . . in fact it worked two times in a row!  I have NO IDEA what was up yesterday.  Maybe a malfunction on the computer that couldn't read it???   

    I can't remember if I mentioned, Jesse bought a set of Walkie Talkies for the house.  One for me when I 'm in the bedroom or bath, and one for the common area (kitchen, dining, den, formal dining room, and laundry).

                                 
                                                  What my new "life preserver" looks like. 

    I had that one horrible experience in the bathroom a few weeks ago, and, despite my hushed calls with my laryngitis voice, no one heard me.  I panicked and it was (literally) hours before I quit shaking.  Thus, the need to communicate from the back of the house to the front of the house.

    I was in the tub a few days ago (I quit standing up taking showers) and Jesse said, "Are you okay, dear."  I had to sit up, dry a hand, grab the walkie talkie, depress a button, and say, "I'm fine.  I'm taking a bath."  Then the reply came, "I'm taking the cat to the curb.  I'm just out here at the curb.  I'll be back in a minute."  (the *cat* to the curb???)  I figured he was teasing me.  I depressed my button and said, "Ok" and sunk back down into the water.  Then there was a knock on the bathroom door - JoAnn!  She's telling me, the conversation I just had wasn't with Jesse.  It was some strange man taking his trash out to the curb and he was asking his own wife if she was okay?  OH NO!!!!!     The idea of me talking to a stranger when I had on no clothes . . . (despite the fact it was only a walkie talkie) . . . made me feel so very UNcomfortble!  We changed frequencies and that cured the problem!  LOL

    I have taken pictures of me with my new look, with- my new hairdo.  My "do", so to speak!
    No make up and no hair!

    See the hair in the photo on the right.  The wispies on TOP of the cap?  That's the shedding I was talking about.  I use clear packing tape (the WIDE stuff) to unstick the hair from the fabric, yet it is woven into the fabric like cashmere and sticks through to the outside of the cap.  That means I'm STILL shedding, even when the cap is on (which it ALWAYS is). 

    Speaking of "do", there was dew everywhere yesterday morning.  The fog had lovely warm air, humid with the fragrance of wet pavement, sweet grass, and floral blooms; and it permeated the back yard.  I stood out there a while just breathing it all in, using big breaths to capture the scents and make the most of them.  It was muggy and the air heavy, but things smelled so good.  Fresh and new!

                                                   

    My "volunteer" rose bushes, that bloom faithfully from spring to late fall, are beginning to do their own thing.  It's best I leave them to "do their own thing," since I would only kill the gorgeous bushes with my unskilled hands!
             
    There must be 92 million little red blooms, with a few coral ones, throughout these two bushes.  It's a small plot of dirt up against the side of the house and at the end of the patio.  Why they grow so well, each year, is beyond me!!!!  Even hard to kill plants don't have a chance with me!!!  I grow basil in pots, and I grow it well.  I'm beginning to get the hang of cherry tomatoes, although I won't plant tomatoes this one summer.  I even killed a bonsai garden Jesse received as a birthday gift.  You put it near a window, water occasionally from the faucet while letting the drainage holes in the ceramic dish expunge the excess water.  Still . . . it only lived, maybe, 90 days???!!!  My mother had one that lived for 20 - 30 years.  It was around our house as long as I can remember!  Not so with me! 


    One perfect coral rose.  AND, IT'S IN *MY* GARDEN!!!!!  Talk about *miracles*!!!!!

    While I was enjoying yesterday morning, a brave robin hopped around the yard.  I tried telephoto settings and it didn't really capture the bird in detail, like I wanted.  I moved closer, and was surprised the bird stayed put, hopping around in the wet grass and around the girls slide.  I know the bird saw me, but seemed fine with the fact I was 12 feet away.  That seemed pretty close to me . . . from a bird's standpoint!


    THEN . . . there's the story about little Chirper yesterday.  JoAnn and I sat for hours giggling at him (after the fact).  She's just not a cat person, but has to admit, Chirper has some endearing "cute" qualities!

    Chirper must love the smell of lilies.  We can't keep his nose away from them.  His been told MANY TIMES to "get down" when we find his nose buried in the fresh flowers that others have continued to supply me with, since the beginning of my cancer diagnosis.  BUT, the lilies give him away each time!

    Me:        Chirperrrrrrrr, have you been smelling the flowers again?
    Chirper:   Noooooooooo
    Me:         Don't lie to me.
    Chirper:   I HAVEN'T, Mommmmm!!!   (thinking silently, "How does she know?)
                             

    I was in the den when he presented his "less than clean" self to me.  He climbed next to me on the sofa and began the cute "snake (or slug) crawl" cats do when trying to be silly or cute.  Like I said, JoAnn and I really laughed at his antics.

    Trying to delay or offset punishment by being too cute!
    There was even traces of orange on his chest and front paws.  Here he is, upside-down slugging his back from side to side to reach me, so he could look up into my eyes while loudly purring!!!

    Once more I sternly said, "Chirperrrrrrrrrr" and he hid his face with his long arms reaching over his head towards me!
                                       

    Doesn't he look skinny and lonnnnnng . . . AND innocent?????!!!!!!

    JoAnn just left with the girls for their therapy appointment AND to go downtown to pick up a prescription for her mother.  They are going shopping after the therapy appointment, so it looks like most of the day will be mine.  Jesse bought large amounts of ground beef and turkey meat and it has to be divided into freezer bags.  The afternoon looks relaxing.  I'll let Rissy finish frosting the cake she made this morning.  Guess that means the book I've been reading might be read for a little bit this afternoon!!!!!

                                      
                                                        Whaaaaaat?!!  I didn't do anything!  LOL

    Be Blessed  ~

  • Rolling My Eyes

    CAN YOU BELIEEEEEEVE IT?????

    My camera reader/writer quit working today.  I put the camera chip in the reader, plugged the reader into the computer, and the computer prompt popped up with, "Unknown Device" . . .   Arghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!  After trying over and over, I'm convinced the reader/writer has headed south on me!

    Anyway, I had dewy pictures from this morning's fog and drizzle, rosebud pictures and one beautifully opened coral rose, Chirper (who got into BIG mischief), and a few scattered Sushi and me pics.  I won't elaborate and maybe will have a new reader/writer soon!  Then I can "share" with you!

    JoAnn is doing okay after her fall.  Their mom has a ramp for her wheel chair that extends from the front porch into the driveway.  At the end of the ramp there is a sharp drop because nothing was built to make the cement and board transition gradual.  She went down on her "good knee" (the one knee cap that wasn't replaced) and elbow.  She will have a few nasty scabs, for sure!  I met her here with two ice packs for her knee and elbow, Neosporin, Teflon bandages, and tape.  She had pain pills and took one before going to sleep.  A rough night (she said the scrapes sting), but she IS getting around slowly today.  Now it's MY turn to care for her. 

    What's so sad is that their brother, James (who was here last year), fell in our garage and hurt his finger.  When he got home his knee (knee cap surgery, also) bothered him and it ended up he had a cracked knee cap replacement part (device?).   What are the chances of both sister and brother coming from Tacoma/Seattle and hurting their knees?  ONLY IN OUR HOUSE!!!!

    Well, Jesse has pretty much put the kibosh on me going anywhere if there are groups of people.  That means:  No shopping (ever); no church (CDs or DVDs only); and no restaurants during regular busy hours.  I think that will pretty much mean me watching church TV, while eating a takeout Burger King Whopper and, possibly, shopping online!  The H1N1 flu has us concerned; PLUS, the fact there is a regular strain of flu creeping through Oklahoma.  I feel like I'm in a bubble at times, but also agree this is temporary and soon this, too, shall pass!

    Meanwhile, I'll be posting pictureless blogs and taking meals in "the dining room" (not really!), and leading the life of luxury - all the while reclining on my plush bed.  SO BORRRRRR-INNNNNNG!

    I was in the tub the other day soaking (where I do some of my best thinking!!!) and thought about how every 14 days, 4 - 5 of the days were lousy days.  I quickly caught myself and said, "NO!  Every 14 days, 9 - 10 are great days!" 

    It's all about perspective!

    Be Blessed  ~

  • Prayers Please!!!

    Jo Ann went to have dinner with her mother and fell on the way to the car.  Hit her "good" knee and an elbow.  Please pray that she heals quickly.  She's home and I've given her ice packs.

    THANKS!

  • Busy!

    I know, I know . . .  Where have I been today? 

    I felt good enough to help JoAnn homeschool and I worked with Rissy and Luci while sitting in the den.  They sat next to me on the sofa and it was nice to teach.  I realize, now, how much I enjoy it.

    We had a late start, today, and Jesse decided to stay home because the grass is still too wet to mow.  His being home, makes things run on a diffrerent schedule.

    I slept well, again, last night.  I'm so grateful for SLEEP!!!!!

    It's almost 3pm and we are just getting around to eating lunch.  Just a hotdog.

    Dinner will be something simple - maybe chicken & noodles made from the leftover Sunday roast chicken.

    Just wanted all to know I'm okay - still a little more tired this time than last time, but I was warned . . . 

    Be Blessed  ~

  • Late Morning Post

    I'm late getting to the computer this morning.  We sat around waiting for the rain to come (it finally did and still is here) and then watched an 11am report bulletin from our state announcing one confirmed case of N1H1 flu.   After 5 minutes, I was satisfied that there's no horrible influenza screaming out of control . . . not yet.  So, I won't worry.  I turned off the TV.  Nothing much interests me on there, anyway.

    A sweet Xanga friend sent me this little card a while back.  I keep it on my desk. 
                                     
                               "My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from Him."  Psalms 62:1  

    Not only is the verse uplifting, it's even a perfect color of picture for my eggplant and sage green desk area.  I have been so touched by how sweet and WONERFULLY supportive my Xanga friends have been while I go through my medical "stuff" and all.  Y'all are AWESOME and I treasure each one of you and do so appreciate your comments and prayers!!!!

                                     

    Annamarie's hearing test results won't be back for a few days.  They either had problems with the machine or problems getting Annamarie to understand what she was supposed to do (sometimes it's hard to know which) and poor JoAnn was there for a lot longer than I had anticipated.  She took the girls to a huge "pizza playland" afterward . . .  and, now, she is their very favorite aunt in the whole wide world!  They truly were surprised and had a good time playing and eating pizza (even though it's not the best pizza in the world), and I enjoyed staying home - getting my own laundry done.  I even had time to read my book (the one I've been reading for 92 million years!!!).

                                    

    Jesse is happy it's Cinco de Mayo, today.  I don't know why . . . we aren't eating Mexican food tonight.  Well, I take that back.  My goal (with the help of Rissy) is chili.  Turkey chili for JoAnn (who can't eat beef) and ground beef chili for the rest of us.  Rissy said she doesn't have my chili recipe, but I think I remember writing it down for her recipe box.  If not, she'll have it tonight.

                                 

    It's another dismal, dark, dank day.  The rain is pouring down outside (much to Jesse's dismay) and it sounds very relaxing.  Makes me feel lazy!

                                         

    The girls' new textbooks arrived yesterday.  Last month was "free shipping" and we took full advantage of it - saved 12%!  No one even asked what was in the two boxes delivered.  I told Rissy, but I don't think the words "next year" have sunk in.  She probably thinks the boxes hold more of the same ol' same ol'!  They always are thrilled when new books arrive and, I'm sure when I open the box, they will love what's inside.  Annamarie and Luci will be in the same books Rissy is working in this year.  I say "year" and that may be what confuses them.  I should say, "next grade up" because we school all year round.

                                     

    I slept really well last night.  I thought Chirper was up against me all night.  HOWEVER . . . JoAnn informed us this morning, the two cats were up and down the hall for what felt like the whole night.  She heard thumping feet, growling, hissing, and then her door being rattled (like a body was slammed into it!).  I guess my peaceful Stormy and Chirper aren't!!!  Apparently they play in the middle of night with me being totally unaware, and so NO WONDER they sleep sweetly during the day!!!!

                                   
                                                (Sushi has more toys than the 3 girls put together!)

    I woke up around 7-ish today and came down the hall to meet Rissy who was waking up at the same time and JoAnn who was just visiting the restroom.  Rissy and I went to the den to wake up with the local news and "The Today Show" and not far behind us was Sushi.  I wish I woke up with as much energy as Sushi!  She wakes up happy, goes outside, comes back, and wants to play ball.  Yeah!  That would be me . . . NOT!!!!

    Nothing on my "To Do List" except to fix that chili tonight with the enlisted help of the troops.  It's a good rainy day for reading and relaxing!

                                       

    Be Blessed  ~

  • A New Week

    Well, I'm starting a new week, here.  I have some puppy and cat pictures to share of our pets enjoying "Auntie Jo'Jo's" being here!  She and Sushi get along famously and, although she is allergic (very much so) to cats, Chirper has decided she's the next best thing to me! 

                                            

    Frankly, I'm enjoying her visit just as much as the pets.  She is so much help and such a good comforter to me!  Taking on a strange house of chores, cooking each day, and teaching & helping to care for three little girlies isn't a responsibility people fall into easily!  She's a grandmother with GROWN children, and only "helps" with two of her granddaughters in WA.  Here, she has assumed the role of "Leader of the Pack" (and full time), which means keeping Jesse "in line" at the same time! LOL!!!

                          

    I'm still feeling a little shaky from last Thursday's chemo, but assume that feeling will start to turn around in a few days.  Last night was my last 1/2 pill of Decadron - SUCH A GLORIOUS FEELING . . .  On one hand I'm grateful for it being invented and on the other hand I hate the side effects.  It's all a balancing act - side effects of chemo vs. side effects of the medications they give to combat the chemo side effects.  Ah, well!  I'm going to keep my mouth shut, as I truly AM glad so many have done research and found ways to fight back cancer cells!  I keep thinking, "Kill!  Kill!  Be destroyed!  Die you vile cancer cells!"  Yes, well . . . I *can be* very dramatic!  I just like the picture image those words conjure in my head!  And, me suited with the full armor of God is comical when picturing me in real metal armor!!!  Me, heavy metal???!!!

                                                                               

    Annamarie is going for a hearing test at 1pm today.  Hopefully she is ignoring us and no damage was done to her hearing when her ear drum tore during the last bad ear infection.  JoAnn told the girls they would all go with her to give me some quiet time at home.  I need to take my bath before they leave - I'm still not thinking it's smart to do certain things without an adult in the house.

                                           
                                                                             (Spoiled Sushi Abigail!)

    I have my own laundry to do, today.  Probably two loads - nothing major.  I made French toast for breakfast.  I woke up early (5 something) because Sampson needed to go outside, and I was never able to fall back asleep.  By 9:30am, my stomach was telling me it was time for lunch, rather than the breakfast I had never had!

    We had a torrential down pour of rain this weekend, and tomorrow it's supposed to start coming down again.  Jesse is chomping at the bit to mow and get his business up and running this year.  But, the truth of the matter is, nothing much has grown, since we hadn't had any spring rains before now.  So, despite his anguish, this is really "a good thing" - in my estimation.

                                                                 

    I wore my wig to dinner last night.  A girl at chemo last Thursday wore one to her appointment, purchased from the same place where I bought mine.  I stared at her thinking how thick it looked and how my tiny face would look dwarfed amid all the long hair.  I wondered what I could have been thinking, when I thought such a mass of hair would look good around my itsy, bitsy face.  So, I lifted out the wig (for the first time since it was purchased) and was pleased to see that I really HAD made a wise decision.  My wig was NOTHING like the gal at chemo, last week.  Mine is layered, is VERY light weight, and has thinner strands of hair cut into layers (plus, it's lots longer in the back than I remembered).  VERY different from what I remembered.  The bangs and the hair that's cut to curl under my jaw bone bothered me while eating, because I'm not used to hair in my face.  But, the color really brought life to my face because of those dark roots highlighting my brown eyes.  I told Jesse I was still VERY HAPPY with the purchase.  That, too, is a "good thing," since I'll probably wear it for the next four or more years until my own hair is long enough to put back in a bun again.

    I wore a blue sleep cap to bed for the first time, last night and will keep it on when staying home.  I was worried I'd shimmy out of it and awaken to a bald, cold head; but, the friend who made it is the one who makes all of my clothes and, as usual, it was perfect.   My hair is much shorter now, curls down the back of my neck (above the shoulders) and lots of short hair hasn't come out,yet.  I feel like a collie, shedding hair everywhere I walk.  I hate to cook in the kitchen or come to the table because my fine hair is found everywhere.  Thus, the reason for the wig at dinner and the sleep cap afterwards.  It's a toss up, right now, of who is shedding more, me or Sushi!

                                                   

    Guess I should take that bath I mentioned, before the troops leave me in an hour!!!!

    Be Blessed  ~