Hi, everyone!
It’s been a while (again!) since I’ve been here.
I’ve had an enormously busy January. Can’t believe it’s January twenty-something, already! We’ve had a gazillion medical appointments between Jesse, me, and the little girls. Mostly routine except for Jesse. He will be having hernia surgery and then everything should slow down.
I’ve also successfully staved off our Christmas celebration. Plans are to have it next weekend.
There are a few things that still need ribbon and one or two that need wrapping. AND, only one gift left to purchase (one Rissy needs to get and one *I* need to get) and then it will be time to concentrate on our traditional Christmas dinner: tenderloin roast beef, twice baked potatoes, and a head of cauliflower with green beans around it. I’ll also be making a beautiful dining room table in reds and whites.
Stocking stuffers hidden at the top of my closet.
I’ll honestly miss the decorations, once they come down. That den is a beautiful place with all those twinkling lights around the doorways and on the mantle! If it had snowed, it would have been a perfect “Hallmark card” sort of scene!!! Who knows, maybe our family WILL have a white Christmas!!! LOL
I have a routine appointment to see the oncologist next week. I finished all of my MRIs and CT scans last week.
The nurse called after one of the MRIs and told me it showed CONTINUED IMPROVEMENT! Guess that means even the scar tissue (where the cancer tumors had attached) is shrinking and maybe even some bone growth in my spine. Wouldn’t that be just marvelous???!!!!
The changes were significant enough that when the nurse called and told me the news and I said, “Ok.” She asked, “That’s it? Just ‘ok’???”
I mustered enthusiasm and said, a little louder, “OKAAAAY!” and she told me that was more like it.
So, I’m taking it that the changes for the better are significant. I’ll find out the total results next week at my appointment.
At one of the MRIs, last week, I was given a paper to take to the MRI desk and for the very first time saw my diagnosis written down on paper:
STAGE 4 CANCER
It made me shutter.
That’s the exact reason I told my oncologist (the first day I met her), “I don’t want to know what the report says, nor do I want to see any pictures of the tumors.”
I was afraid my faith would waiver if I had a picture, or the written diagnosis, in my brain. You know? If I *saw* that the cancer was THAT BAD, I might not be able to trust God to be big enough to heal me; even though we know how big our God is.
I didn’t want the enemy to make my circumstances any clearer or to etch the diagnosis in my brain.
I knew it was Stage 4 Cancer – but, I focused on and trusted God.
I told Dr. Bova, “I don’t want to know what the report says or to see pictures of my spine and the tumors in my chest. *You* do what you do best and treat me; and, *I’ll* do what I do best, and that is to pray!”
And I’m still giving my testimony of what God has done and how I’ve had not one bit of surgery to remove the cancerous tumors. Praise God!!!!
On a happier note:
I’m home alone in a quiet house.
Everyone has gone to church and will go by Jesse’s mother’s house afterward to drop off some laundry Jesse did for her. I had a rare but rough day with pain, yesterday, so Jesse let me sleep too long this morning, and I didn’t have enough time to get ready for church. He assumed I wouldn’t be feeling good enough to go.
Wrong! I feel good enough (thank you, Lord!) but it IS a nice break to have a bit of silence!
I have a few messy spots that need to be tidied up while the family is gone. My wrapping paper, ribbon, and all that stuff are still in the bedroom and Jesse will be so happy to see those things gone!!!
We gave Little Bit away this past week.
I know – a shock!
We’ve been so busy and gone so much that he has been very lonely. He needed a home where someone could attend to him 24/7. The gal doing my cleaning said she had several people wanting him and gave him to a family (her husband’s relatives) with lots of children. She told us, “I don’t think his feet have touched the ground since he arrived. Someone is always carrying him around and he looks like he’s in heaven – SO very happy!”
In my whole life, this is the second animal I’ve had to give away. My horse was the first. If I get a pet, I commit to that pet. But, Little Bit and the horse both needed more attention then they were getting. So giving them to GOOD owners made me feel better.
Sushi is doing well without him. And, we were shocked by how quiet our house has been since Little Bit left. I didn’t realize he created so much excitement and noise! He barked all the time and, I guess, I had just become used to it!
I really need to get dressed and get Sunday dinner underway – so, I need to say “good-bye” for now.
Be blessed ~
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