March 2, 2011
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New Computer
I’m back!
I’m back, but without pictures.
I don’t have the software loaded and so I can’t share pictures from my camera.
We had a nice party for Rissy on Sunday evening. Except for me cratering.
Seriously, I think I must have had an anxiety attack. We had 6 extra people show up and I tried hard to not make them feel like they were not welcome. Jesse came out to the kitchen where I was preparing the hot foods in the oven and asked if I was okay. I think I was staring at the counter with a blank look.
I told him, “No, I’m not,” and he told me to go lie down.
I numbly said, “Okay,” and walked to the bedroom. Stephanie came looking for me and I was sitting on the toilet lid in our bathroom and shaking like a leaf. She got two of my tranquilizers and had to hold the cup because my shaking was that bad.
I put on “Quiet Beauty” (cello/piano music) by James Todd, focused on the ceiling fan globe, did deep breathing, and slowly recited the 23rd Psalm, the 91st Psalm, and part of Psalm 103. Praise the Lord for Bible memorization!
Eventually I felt a little more calm, and a whole lot embarrassed. Stephanie & Jesse brought me plates of food (low blood sugar could have been a factor, too), but I stayed in bed the rest of the evening. Besides having Jesse and Stephanie to check on me, my mother in law and sister in law were both here to look in on me.
JoAnn left yesterday. She actually left Monday for Dallas, and the plane left from there yesterday, and she’s home safe and sound. So glad she was here when I had my surgery. That was such an early hour and in the middle of that blizzard . . . I don’t know what we would have done with the children. Certainly nothing as easy as leaving them sleeping in their beds with JoAnn to watch them.
My mother in law will be here another week. She’s also been an immense help with the children, making sure they do their school work and their chores. She’s helped me by cleaning some of the house that I haven’t been able to do. I lost my household help last October and have never replaced the lady who left.
My mother in law has taken the girls to the park, shopping, and just about anywhere to give them something to do. I’ll miss her company when she’s gone.
Jesse has been sick with a nasty cold that won’t leave him alone. He’s NEVER sick, so I imagine the stress of everything has been a health factor for him. We’re beginning to have nicer and nicer weather with rain, which means the grass growing season is just around the corner. He’s definitely looking forward to that. He enjoys being outdoors
.I’m keeping busy reading book after book and nothing else. I sorted my laundry today (big woot!) and I cleaned the desk top. Last night and this morning, I wrote a gazillion letters (then I ran out of people to write!!!).
Heading back to bed to read and rest, now!
Be Blessed ~
Comments (12)
So sorry you had an anxiety attack during Rissy’s party. So grateful for your husband, mil and sil to help out so you could lie down. Those attacks are awful. Praying for a speedy recovery and also that Jesse feels better. And yes, PTL for Bible memorization!
Are you starting to feel halfway back to normal? It seems like you’ve been gone forever…
I’m sorry you had to deal w/ anxiety at Rissy’s party… That doesn’t sound like fun, but it’s wonderful that you had loved ones to take care of you! (((HUGS)))
Glad to see that you posted again! And thankful you’ve had help.
Hey! You have my address if you need to write more letters! LOL! Sounds like you may have just pushed yourself a little too much, my friend! I know when I am recovering, I feel a lot better in my HEAD than I really am. I make big plans, and then I try to do too much and end up shaky and feeling nasty. Glad you are doing better, but sorry you are losing your helpers. Your body has been through a lot in the last few years, and now that we are (a-hem) getting older, we just don’t bounce back as fast.~~ I am wondering if it would help Jesse to take some extra vitamin D. He is used to being out in the fresh air and sun, and he doesn’t get that in the Winter months. I started taking it, and I haven’t had so much trouble with cold viruses this Winter. Here in Denmark, they don’t fortify the milk and other products with extra vitamins. Once we get some sunshine again, I will stop taking it until the dark days come again.
@DanishDoll -
Yes I sure COULD write you. Look for a letter, it’s cheaper to mail than a box! LOL!!! And, btw, your box is still being filled, we haven’t forgotten!!! I’ll tell Jesse about the vitamin D. I take it twice a day, along with a Calcium w/D pill. I’ve never had an anxiety attack in my whole life, but I’m assuming that’s what I experienced that night.
I’ve had a couple of anxiety attacks in my life. The odd thing about them is you don’t know what’s happening at the time and it isn’t until afterwards that you realize what happened. The first time I had one was when I was a young mother and I was overwhelmed by some “bossy” relatives…I won’t go into detail but the jist is I hid under my son’s crib and it was awhile before my hubby found me and had to coax me out. I know this is making me sound “looney” but I’m really not! It was a combination of some physical issues I was going through at the time, exhausted and frustrated with other’s trying to control me. I felt like I was going to “snap” so hiding seemed the better option. We’ve joked about it since but at the time it wasn’t funny!
I’ve been out of the loop for awhile, trying to catch up but it seems impossible. I know you’ve had surgery and are still recovering. I think that explains alot! I pray for your health even when I’m not dropping by Xanga. Hopefully we’ll be both be around more. I think I tend to “hibernate” somewhat in the winter but it’s starting to feel like spring is one the way…ahhh…..sunshine and warmth!
Welcome back! I guess I missed the bit about you having surgery–hope your recovery is quick & complete! Take care & God bless!
Thinking about you.
hey lady!!! i’ve been thinking of YOU.. found a little note from ya tucked in one of my books last night.
big hugs to you this wednesday~
Hope you are feeling better and that Jesse is over that cold by now. Has Spring shown up there yet?
@DanishDoll -
Thanks for stopping by. I was just going to check out your site this morning, but breakfast distracted me and now here you are reaching out first! Jesse’s cold is better, but he spent a weekend hugging the toilet with a horrible stomach bug. We’re taking Annamarie to the doctor this afternoon for pink eye. I’ll update on here soon, I promise! AND, I haven’t forgotten about writing you a letter. Jesse’s teasing me (at least once a week) about your “box” in the garage!
Good to hear from you. Hope you continue to feel better and are able to rest.