July 2, 2009

  • Rough Night, Rough Day

    It's a little late for me to be posting, but I was afraid some of you would think "the worst" if you didn't hear *something* from me, today. 

    Yesterday's pain continued through the night.  I slept hard yesterday afternoon for about two hours. 

    I DID sleep well last night, but awoke, this morning, with pain that felt like a fever was raging through my body. 

    In fact, yesterday, last night, and again this morning I DID have a slight fever. 

    Another call to the doctor's nurse.

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    New instructions: 
    Clear instructions . . .  I'm to take my narcotic pain pills daily, whether I have pain or not. 

    Explanation:  In order for the pain receptors in my body to be blocked, I must have a dose of medication for pain administered 24/7 on a regular basis (pain or no pain). 

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    I argued.  (more like screamed my protest of possible prescription drug addiction) 

    It was explained to me that taking my pain medication ONLY when pain appears, makes the pain rise and fall like a roller coaster (a good description of how my past 5 weeks has been - regarding pain). 

    She further explained:  This isn't a pain they expect me to bear, nor is it like regular pain from surgery, a broken bone, etc.  This is chemically induced pain and, quite frankly, the nurse can't believe I have been trying to get through that level of induced pain without any help from pain medication. 
    (I think that was her way of calling me stupid - but I didn't ask for clarification) 

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    So, she had Jesse come up to the clinic to get a Percocet and Morphine prescription refill and said she'll call me on Monday expecting to hear I have had a great holiday weekend. 

    I cried on the phone and embarrassed myself when I talked with her.  I SO don't want to be dependent on drugs.  She said I have been blessed all my life with good health and have never had to take pain medication, except for a few days (not something most people can say) but *this time* things are different AND temporary. 

    She said she KNEW I was afraid and that I must have an incredibly high pain threshold to have been NOT taking pain medication on a regular basis.  BUT . . .  she and the doctor won't do ANYTHING to harm me and I should trust them with the pain medication directions.  Yep!  I cried. 

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    I AM okay (now) and have had a bath and will wake up tomorrow with a new attitude (and hopefully no pain) and try to get used to this all being okay.  The pain is with me, but kind of distant, except for a few occasional twinges of sharp pain in my knees.

    The level of pain is down considerably and I will, hopefully, have something more cheerful to write about tomorrow.

    Be Blessed  ~

Comments (9)

  • May the Lord allay your fears. Fear is not from Him.

  • I was thinking that you should probably be taking the meds even when you weren't hurting so its nice to know that the Dr's are looking out for you.  I know that you are a strong enough person that an addiction will not be an issue.  With the help of pain meds, good Dr's and the most importantly the Lord you will overcome it all.  (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) We love you!

  • Amen to the commenter above! My dr told me when I needed pain meds after my surgery to take them before you need them so they can kick in. If you wait until you are hurting it is too late!
    You will be ok...and I know that you won't get addicted because of who you are!
    Thanks for letting us know how you are doing!
    {{{HUGS}}}
    Tina

  • Bless your heart! I actually heard the same explanation from a dear friend who has a lot of physical pain. She said it's worst if you don't take it regularly. I'm sorry you had a bad time of it. I pray things will be better tonight and tomorrow. God bless you!

  • I am so very sorry that you've gone through so much -- and I trust that God is guiding through this advice from your doctor and through the agreements of your friends who have shared their experiences here. May you be blessed with peace of mind and rest for your body.

  • I know it is a hard call. The pain is debilitating, but the pain meds can also often make you feel all "fuzzy" and blah and even slightly nauseous. I guess the think you have to focus on is the word TEMPORARY! Right now, you need the drugs. If you have to constantly fight this pain, you won't be able to rest, and you need to rest to get well. Hope you are able to get some good rest today. I love you and am praying for you!

  • Hugs & wishes for a pain-free weekend!!

  • Ahhh....Cherylyn....my heart goes out to you. I think with you so keenly aware of and opposed to dependancy on the pain meds that you will be very wise with the usage. I agree with Mae, focus on "temporary" this is to get you through this rough patch. Continuing in prayer for you, hugs~Dawne

  • Agree with all the above. Do what you need to for now.

    And have a great weekend.

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