April 20, 2009

• Me, Me, Me, Me, Meeee

  I realized that's not how you spell the vocal "Mi, Mi, Mi, Mi, Miiii" - but this isn't about vocals, today.  This post is about my birthday pictures taken a week ago (April 12th) while I was lavished upon with gowns, and other things that will be cherished AND USEFUL in the months to come!

  Also, I'm not usually so slow when reading a book.  I realize I've had my current book up for quite a while, but it's a great little book to read in short chapters and I have been reading the Bible more than anything (not a BAD thing!!!) and too busy to read any of my shelves and shelves of books still unread.

  Allow me to indulge in myself, since I'm always the one BEHIND the camera!  I'll try to remember what was going on so I can narrate the pictures and they make more sense than some grinning"older" woman acting goofy!!!

  Rissy had seen my headphones for my boom box (no comments please, I'm sure an IPOD or MP3 player is more efficient and smaller, but I"m old and technology has gotten the better of me!) were ragged - maybe even chewed on by an animal.  (An animal?  In MY house???!!!).  So, one of the first surprises was a new set of headphones.  That way, I can listen to my Christian music any hour of the day or night without interrupting anyone or me hearing background noise.

           
                                                            
                                        Yes, I would definitely say her remembering my need thrilled me!

  Next, Annamarie gave me a new BIG (the only kind I carry) purse in brown for the summer months ahead.  She did a great job of finding a BIG one, since they can never be "too" big!
                                          

  Then, it was pretty nightgown after nightgown for me.  I can never have too many, although I probably already own too many!  These were for now and for later, when my arms might be too sore to slip through a sleeve.  Some were snap down the front from neck to hem to make putting them on easier after surgery.

                                                    
  

  I wore this one last night!  So pretty and so soft AND so feminine!
         
  Okay, well . . . "technically" I STILL have it on!  BUT, I'll be getting dressed soon!

  Earlier this morning, I baked two loaves of friend Emily's banana bread.  It's her family's recipe that's around 100 years old.  YUM!  Is my best commentary to her banana bread!  It's a wonderful way to use black bananas, I absolutely abhor throwing away food.

  "Whoa!"  That's what I was saying.  Not from a particular gift, nor from shock or terror.
                 
  My eyes were more than a little blurred and I was seeing flashing balls of light in the air around me, after so many photos being taken with flashes going off in every direction.  Rissy took this and was thrilled with my captured look of "blurry-eyes" and my inability to focus on anything for a few minutes.  I had to promise to post this one for her!

  No plans.  Except maybe Rissy's therapy appointment this week and the girls' counseling therapy appointment on Friday.  I hope nothing changes my schedule.  I like down time. I'm finding I like down time way more than I ever realized it or appreciated it.

  I know I'm always going 90 to nothing and most of the world wonders how I keep up with myself, but it's a routine that I have established and so my 90 to nothing speed is really "nothing" to me.  Having someone else come into my life and tell me when to be somewhere the next day really has been trying for me - THE CONTROL FREAK!

              
  I believe this smile is because my eyes were beginning to focus again!  I was trying to get up out of that "tilt over" position that a bothered equilibrium hands out!

  I think the plan for today is that when JoAnn is finished with homeschool, she is taking the girls to a park.  We're predicted to have weather mid 70's - 80's all week.  The girls definitely need the exercise and JoAnn thought I'd like some alone and quiet time for an hour.

  I've had problems sleeping.  I've had what they called "peri-menopausal insomnia" for about 10 years.  I have finally taken prescription medications for the past 3 or so years to help me stay asleep.  The chemo medications are messing with that (not to mention satan's voice that is always louder in the middle of the night) and I just received a call from the nurse who handles my insurance needs.  She suggested I call the oncologist's office immediately this morning and see if they can help me with the insomnia.  I am a person who finds it almost impossible to nap during the day and really NEED those night hours of sleep.  They not only do wonders for me mentally, but also I believe they will help heal my body quicker than snatches of interrupted sleep.

          
  Since being faced with probably losing my eyebrows and eyelashes, as well as my hair, I have moved to NO make up at all except some cheek blush.  I like eyebrows and eyelashes showing much better, especially as I look at my pictures and realize how a very little bit of make up can go a long way with me!  Again, this must be all about my "control issues" and letting go of stuff that I will most likely be forced to let go of in the next few weeks.

  I don't really have any plans for today.  I finished our laundry this morning and baked that banana bread.  Then, I have a few phone calls to make and 3 bills Jesse wants me to pay.  I plan to read and relax with the windows open and feel the fresh air in our house.

                
                                          Mmmmmm!  This days is beginning to hold a lot of promise!

  Be Blessed  ~
  
   
  

   

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