March 19, 2009
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Sorry, No Pictures
I think I remember having some pictures on my camera, but I'm definitely not supposed to be climbing under my desk to plug in the USB port connector!!! I'm pretty bruised feeling, but only took a percoset at bedtime.
I just got a call from the nurse who worked with me yesterday and I DO have cancer. From what she says, it sounds serious because my axillary gland (a lymph gland) is involved. Apparently it's ductal cancer (milk duct) that has moved to the left axillary armpit. After surgery, they will even be able to biopsy the tissue to see if it was caused by the estrogen therapy I was on for only a few months.
I will have an MRI on the 23rd of this month, and see a surgeon April 7th. The surgeon comes highly recommended and is supposed to be very patient. My questions will have to wait until I see the surgeon and she has the MRI results.
Only God knows what I'm facing. I would think a mastectomy for sure. This time, I believe I'll wait until I see the surgeon, rather than research on the web for information all by myself. I'm sure many questions will form in my mind between now and then.
The worse part of yesterday was the gal (remember the one who told me not to bring my children back?) was my ultra sound tech. I silently named her "troll girl" as she had no personality or kind bedside manner. The doctor was super. The same nurse as last time was wonderful - AGAIN. She was the one who just called me with the news. I felt so sorry for her. What a job and what a horrible message to call with - not knowing how a person will react.
They thought I might be pregnant and sent me across the street to the hosptal for an accurate "blood" pregnancy test. I'm not. Although, when the lab called Jesse he came to me with the phone up to his ear saying, "So, she is definitely pregnant? There is no mistake?" Talk about shock! After he laughed, I told him to pack and go live with his sister in Tacoma, WA! I was on the phone with her when he brought the PG news! She couldn't believe he had done that to me, either! Anyway, we had a great laugh!
So, we wait. Whether God has life or death in my near future, is unknown. How aggressive or severe the treatments may be is also unknown.
I've told Jesse and he is on his way home.
Friend Ellen, you may be a source of help to me. You are the only one I known who has battled this same beast.
Bloggie friends, by all means, continue to keep me in your prayers and pray that I stay in close fellowship with God. The *ONLY* one who can save, heal, and deliver.
Be Blessed ~
Comments (25)
Hugs and prayers...
Rich
Cherylyn, you have my EARNEST and FERVENT prayers for complete healing.
Wow.... ((((HUGS))))
I think I would've done the same thing you did to Jesse, although I might've considered shooting him. How could he tease you like that?!?!?
I'm curious, though, why did they think you might be pregnant? I can't imagine..... Will you put off taking any new foster kids?
So much to consider & pray for.... ((((HUGS))))
Amen to that. God is in control. And I will continue to pray for you to stick around and harass us all for many more years.
Love you bunches,
Lori
Dear Cherylyn,
I know how devastating that kind of news can be -- at least how it affected my first husband and I. Keep your trust in God strong for He is the One who is in control of all things.
As always - with love and prayers,
Judy
Oh, Cherlyn, of course I will continue to pray for you dear friend. My mom had an agressive form of breast cancer. She had a lumpectomy and radiation. When she passed away 5 years later, there was no trace of cancer in her body. I know you are putting your fears in the Lord's hands. Much love, Jill
I will contine to pray for you & your family. I can't imagine what you are going through but if you need anything please let me know.
Oh my! Our prayers are with you and your family as well! Praise be to God, that He is the one in control, and is our source of hope and peace!
will be keeping you in my prayers. So sorry that you didn't get better news. Stay strong.
We wait with you Cherylyn. Praying and trusting Father God. You can be sure that you will be thought of and prayed for often as you walk through this. You are loved. ~Dawne
Oh Cherylyn! I am crying...no this cannot happen. Sorry, I am not feeling good right now. Is it ok that I cry? A heart friend who I haven't even met. I will fervently be praying for you, my dear sister.
Monster hugs and prayers.
I love you!
Tina
@InnerJoy -
Yes, Tina, cry. This has been a horrible day for me. I've had to call those I love the most and tell them horrible news that made them feel awful.
Crying is to be expected (although, I'm strangely, extremely calm as I process this all) and I'm afraid I've made more people cry today than smile.
I enjoy HELPING people feel better . . . not making them feel sad. But I had to place those calls, like it or not.
AND, I had to post this post . . .
It was the honest and right thing to do for friends and family who care about me.
I hurt for you and your family, knowing from experience the pain of hearing "Mom has cancer".
So sorry to hear of your news you received today!! Will be thinking of you and praying for you!! I pray that God will flood your heart with HIS peace in the midst of all the questions and turmoil!!! We work for a lady that had breast cancer and has been free of it for probably 7 or 8 years now. She had it in her lymph glands too, and they removed the glands, but didn't need to do a mastectomy. I don't know if she had the same thing you do or not. I'm sure it is hard to go through, no matter how the situation is!!! I just pray that God will calm your heart, and give you a peace that passes all understanding!!! Keep trusting Him!!!!
That was terrible news for you and your family to recieve. And for us all!
But laughter is good!!
Lots of hugs from me too!
Oh Cheryln, sending lots and lots of love and healing prayers your way . . . . I know we've never met, but I always love your blog posts and find much I can relate to in each one usually! I've always thought you'd be one blogger I'd love to meet in person.
I have a friend who had aggressive breast cancer, and she has lived and survived. She credits hers to taking "Barley Green" and other similar products along with her mastectomy and chemo AND LOTS OF PRYAYERS. Just throwing that out to encourage you a bit I hope.
You are in my prayers ,But I want to give you a note of encouragement ,My sister had Breast cancer and Had her breast removed that was over 10 years ago and she has been cancer free ,The hard part is the mind ,racing thoughts worry this and that,Remember Jesus died on the Cross to take those burdens away,Whenever you feel overwhelmed just visualize laying those burdens at the foot of the cross .God hears our prayers ,and I know you are in many people's prayers right now
@homesteadingtess -
"Jesus died on the Cross to take those burdens away"
Funny you should put into words exactly what I did during my biopsies. There was a cross in the room on the wall with Jesus on it. At one point I looked at it and prayed, "Jesus, carry this burden." I felt an immediate sense of peace - as I do now! Thanks for the encouragement. I've heard many stories of surviving breast cancer and pray I will be one of those stories!
I am so sorry you have to go through all this dear friend. I can tell by your post that you are experiencing first hand that peace that really does pass all our understanding. I don't know how people go through these awful times in life without the hope and assurance of our Heavenly Father and His unfailing love for us.
Praying....
How Scary!
I will be praying for you as you try to be strong , But also praying for your girls and husband as they most likly have a mixture of scared and helpless emotions over taking them!
I am so sorry your news wasn't better. You and your family will be in my prayers. I hope you find the support you need during your treatment.
((HUGS)) Sending you love & prayer & support. xoxo Shanda
Sometimes the path God directs us upon isn't the one we would have chosen. But through this, I know He will be with you every step of the way. May His light shine though you for all to see even through these difficult moments. I hope and pray that you will have a full and complete recovery.
I'll be praying for you.
I'm sorry to hear about your health issues. You will definitely be in our prayers. My sister in law had breast cancer and was very sick for a long time but she has now been cancer free for 6 years. If there is anything at all I can do please let me know. Love you much!
Oh, man, Cherylyn -- I'll pray for you. (P.S. -- that was a mean trick of your husband's!!!)
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