May 30, 2008

• Running on Empty

  I’m sitting here this morning, reading blogs, and enjoying the quiet!  Rissy and Luci are still asleep.  Annamarie is in the den reading a book.  She just learned to read (a few words finally kicked in)  about 2-3 weeks ago.  I have the same books I used back in first grade in 1959 – Dick, Jane, Sally, Spot, and Puff.  Anyone remember those?  “Oh!  Look!  Oh, oh, oh.  Look!  Oh, Look!”

  We picked up her glasses the day before yesterday (she is supposed to wear them all the time) and Rissy got hers, mainly for reading and schoolwork.  The glasses made Annamarie dizzy, so she wore them a while and then took them off a while and then back on again, etc.  She’ll have to get used to them, I’m sure.  Now I’ll have a reason to take pictures of the girls, again!

  I was so tired of the girls arguing all day.  Luci
  ending up being obstinate a few times and finally spanked when we got
  home and sent to her bedroom for time out.  She fell asleep, so I guess
  she was just as exhausted as me.   Annamarie did everything she could
  to provoke Luci all day long.  It makes me mad because she’s eight and
  should know better, but then I try to remember she’s actually more like
  a 4yo.  Also, she’s usually left behind and gets her feelings hurt
  easily, so I think there is power trip in being able to make someone
  else unhappy and cry.  Just my unprofessional observation!  To top it
  off, Rissy was a “know-it-all” almost all day and I wanted to strangle
  her.  JanaLyn, as usual, talked non-stop.  No kidding.  I think I must
  have been the same way from the stories relatives tell about me. 
  NON-STOP!!!  Talk to the rock she found, talked to her sunburn, talked,
  talked, talked, talked!

  I went ahead 
  (even though my body felt ready for the grave!!!!) and we all went to
  Wal-Mart because I had ordered a bookshelf for Rissy’s room and
  received notice that it was ready for pick up.  Stood in line forever
  waiting for someone to help at customer service and after about 20
  minutes someone arrived.  That’s when I found out I was at the wrong
  Wal-Mart!!!  Despite my sheer exhaustion, we dropped off Stephanie
  & JanaLyn and drove to the correct Wal-Mart.  Had to wait again for
  help (huge sigh, inserted here, with drooping shoulders).  She told me she could
  call for someone to help me take it to my car, but I remembered it was
  supposed to be 50 lbs and my children are heavier, so I declined
  accepting her offer.  It really wasn’t hard to leverage it out of the
  cart and into the back of the Suburban.
  
  
  I was so tired last night.  I don’t think I fixed dinner (breakfast)
  until close to 8pm.  I cooked sausages, a can of giant flaky buttermilk biscuits and then made scrambled eggs.  Just as we were finishing up, Jesse walked in and didn’t want to eat.  I sat the at the computer for a while, but my mouse is being contrary and acts spastic.  It won’t go where I want it to and if I click and drag, it stops halfway.  It made navigating on the computer difficult!  I decided I was too tired to be on the computer no matter WHAT the reason and shut it down.  That’s when I realized I had to make coffee for in the morning.  Walking into the kitchen made me realize, I hadn’t put up the dinner leftovers that Jesse didn’t eat.  I was almost in tears.  My heels hurt from walking all day (even though I wear special shoes – I guess they can only work so much magic!) and my whole body was crying.  I quickly turned out lights and did the “get the house ready for bed” routine, went to the bathroom to change into my nightgown, take down my hair (I promise EVERY hair pin was tangled in my hair!!!), and brushed my teeth.  Jesse was 2 minutes behind me and said he was going to sleep sitting up on the living room sofa for a while because his back hurt.  That’s the last I saw of him

  I woke up once in the middle of the night needing to use the restroom.  I usually feel my way around the bed and the small sofa we have at the end of the bed.  I’m not quite sure how it happened . . . but my knees buckled under me, and I fell flat on my face.  Fortunately, I went down knees first then face.  I couldn’t believe I was that tired!  No mortal head wounds or broken nose this morning, so I guess my fall was cushioned!  My feet still hurt this morning and I’m feeling the overly exercised muscles in my shoulders from lifting the bookcase box out of my car and bringing it inside.

  I have to get Stephanie to work by 10am this morning, unless they cancel her from their schedule again today.  Surely, they wouldn’t do that two days in a row!  I have the girls’ therapist appointment at two and plan to grocery shop after that.  I’m going to throw clothes on all of us as late as possible and then pick up Stephanie and JanaLyn.   I’m coming back to our house to get bathed and get dressed properly and will have to leave around 1:30pm to get to the girls’ appointment on time.  It’s a lot of gasoline to come home for just 3 hours, but I just can’t think of one thing to do to occupy that amount of time and I don’t think I can shovel another McDonald’s meal in me!  I can get the kitchen and laundry done while I’m waiting and the girls can watch a movie or do school work.

  Oddly enough, I’m looking forward to staying home this week-end and cleaning house!  Now, you KNOW things are bad when you want to stay home and do chores!!!!

  Happy Friday to everyone!

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