August 17, 2007

• Limping Along

  Thanks for everyone’s kind comments.  I try to read most of my mail in the morning – when I’m the strongest.

  I AM resting because I’m afraid of what will happen if I don’t.  In order to see progress, I must look back to last week’s Thurs/Fri to realize my dry cough isn’t as severe this week.  I AM sitting up in bed instead of being propped up, and I’m eating my meals at the table and sitting here at the computer instead of laying in bed for meals and NO contact on the computer.  That’s progress, albeit small.

  I ordered Rissy’s books textbooks yesterday.  What should have been a simple data entry punch!, punch!, punch! . . . was a tedious ordeal and finally I pushed the “Order Now” button.  I felt like I’d never ordered anything online, before!  I checked and rechecked my order form (only 20 books, 3 or 4 of which were duplicates!!!!!) and felt dulled of my senses.  I decided to only order for Rissy and the few books Annamarie will be sharing (social studies, geography, & Bible) and will order the rest of the workbooks for Luci and JanaLyn (and the rest of the sets for Annamarie) later on, but before they become obsolete.

  I feel like, if I can get Jesse to find a box in the garage for the fabrics for Tina, I can pack it up with the patterns and notions this weekend, if she’s willing to wash the fabrics before cutting out the dresses.  That’s my problem – it’s not as simple as just putting fabric in a box and a taking it to the post office.  I still have to measure the girls and send those numbers to Tina, as well as wash the fabric and designate what goes with which child, and be sure I have all of the notions with the correct piece of fabric.  Too much to ponder at this point!

  None of this sounds like a big deal, I know, but that’s the amount of energy I lack.  I am experiencing difficulty with everything I do, if my brain is required.  Thinking is beyond my ability, too.

  They gave me a NEW medicine (inhaler) yesterday when Jesse took the girls in for their med appointments.  The gal on the phone told me she had given Jesse something new for me to use, told me the name of the inhaler, told me how often to use it, but I couldn’t understand her.  She finally asked me to get a sheet of paper to write down the instructions she was telling me.   I felt like a BOZO.

  We are possibly going to get rain this weekend (hurricane, tropical storms from TX) and temps should stay in the 90′s.  I haven’t minded the 100+ temps since I’ve been indoors the whole time.  It rained all through June and the beginning of July, then I got sick around July 15th and have been sick ever since.  Schools around the area are starting up again and I feel like I lost a whole summer.  The girls swam in a friend’s pool twice and played in the sprinkler about 5 times – not their typical type of summer.

  The longevity of my recovery is similar to the summer of 1986 when I lost a baby in June and almost lost my own life.  When September came, I was still feeling puny.  I was 33yo instead of 54yo and it STILL took me months to recover from that episode.  Of course, I only had Stephanie, who had just turned 8 – while I was in the hospital.  Now I have 3 munchkins to think about, but I DO have a husband!

  Okey, dokey, I’ve been on here long enough today.  Thank you, thank you (!!!!) for your prayers and those who sent cards, etc.  I WILL write thank you notes when I am strong enough to remember how to spell!

  Hooray for Spell Check!

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